How My Hair Prevented Me from Missions AKA: God Does Not Call the Perfect

I have horrible hair. Flat, brown, straight, thin, limp boring hair. My hair MUST be washed every 21 and a half hours or it actually has grease clumps. No, dry shampoo does not work. No, not washing my hair every day is NOT going to change the make-up of my hair. The money I have spent on perms, creams, shampoos, color, and hair do-dads could have fed an entire village for a year. Yes, a LARGE village with LOTS of teenage boys. I have horrible hair.

True confession: I have told myself I couldn't go to Haiti for an extended period of time because I have bad hair. I have actually said---well, if God really wanted me to go on a mission trip for an extended period of time, He would have given me thick, wavy, naturally highlighted hair that can be put up in a messy bun with minimal effort. You know, THAT kind of hair.

I know, right?

Then I take it a step. If God really wanted  me to go to an extended mission trip, He would give me a burning bush. He would provide very clear, very precise, unfathomable directions in a color-coded flow chart with checklists and itineraries.

Then I take it ANOTHER step. If God really wanted me to go on an extended mission trip, He would make me less broken, less insecure, less scared.  He would "fix" all this stuff that I need "fixed" before He allowed me in all of MY mess to enter into someone else's mess.

Because, you know, that is how it works in the Bible, right? A quick Google search gives many examples:


  • Noah drank. A lot. 
  • Abraham was old
  • Moses was not a good public speaker
  • Elijah had depression 
  • David and the whole Bathsheba thing
  • Disciples LITERALLY fell asleep when praying
  • Paul AKA Saul of Tarsus---Well, he was just a hot mess before Damascus! 
Some of the people were imperfect because of certain THINGS about them. Abraham's age, Moses stuttering. Some of the people were imperfect because of certain CHOICES they made. Noah's drinking. David's adultery.

My horrible hair. My doubt. Sometimes it is a THING; sometimes it is a CHOICE.

God does not call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

1 Corinthians 1:27-29 "But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things-and the things that are not-to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him"

My sister-in-law made this for Christmas a few years ago and it has been sitting on my desk since.

Isaiah 6:8 "I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, 'Whom shall I send and who will go for us?' Then I said, "Here am I. Send me."

Is God asking you---"Whom shall I send?"

It doesn't have to be a mission trip--is it to ask the waitress at the diner to your small group? Check on your neighbor? Apologize to a friend? Become a foster parent? Conserve your money for bigger things? (More on this later!) Start a blog? Run for office? Buy someone a meal? Close Facebook and pray? Sponsor a child? Memorize a verse?

God calls ALL of us. All the time. To do all sorts of things.

Even with mess. Even with bad hair. Even with pain and sorrow and insecurity and fear and doubt.

Renmen Lavi,



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